Do you ever get that feeling of being overwhelmed? Of having so much to do that you don’t know where to start? We all get it from time to time and we all handle it in different ways. Today I am feeling overwhelmed and I wanted to share with you how this has come about.
Sunday’s is usually my day for focusing on sonyanoonan.com or askthebookkeeper.com.au. I sit at my laptop and work for hours and hours on either or both sites. I don’t have kids to worry about on a Sunday and I don’t have anywhere to go (usually). Yesterday I entered into a different vibrational level, I could feel it. I have this feeling of wanting to move forward, its like an energy pulling me forward. I started talking to people about all my dreams and wishes and hopes. And at the end of the day I went to bed totally exhausted.
Today I woke up, sat at my computer to begin my ‘normal’ Sunday, but something happened. Instead of working on my websites I decided to do my ‘homework’ that I had from my Creating Financial Freedom course that I am doing with Julie Lake. 2 weeks ago we had to vibrationally spend $1,000, I had done this but only roughly so I did it again. Then last week we had to vibrationally spend $10,000, I had once again only done this roughly so I revamped this as well. Well I started to and them my mother came over to drop some things off. I went outside to greet her and she started asking me about things I wanted to do around my house, so we spend half and hour talking about all the renovations I wanted to do.
When she had left I came back inside and sat at my computer to start again, but I was too worked up to sit quietly and work, my mind was running overtime with all the things that I want to do around my house. So I got out a notebook and pen and started to write all my idea’s down. Got halfway through and started feeling really overwhelmed by things.
Things that I want to improve in my life that are making me feel overwhelmed
- Dynamic Bookkeeping
- Ask the Bookkeeper
- sonyanoonan.com
- Renovate my house
- Landscape my yard
- Improve my finances
- Lose weight
- Get Fit – run a marathon & ride the Tour de Cure
- Be able to travel extensively throughout the world
I feel that for me to be able to achieve all this I need to do the following:
- Work full time on Dynamic Bookkeeping
- Work full time on Ask the Bookkeeper
- Work full time on sonyanoonan.com
- Spend hours reading and learning about renovating
- Find $100,000 for renovations
- Spend hours reading and learning about landscaping
- Find $20,000 for landscaping
- Take control of my finances
- Learn how to be financially free
- Count calories
- Learn to cook healthy meals
- Run everyday
- Overcome all injuries that I have to be able to run
- Ride my bike every day
- Get a passport
- Plan my travels
- and anything else that I have forgotten
Blocks that are making me feel overwhelmed
I have so many areas of my life that I want to ‘improve’, there are so many changes I want to make so that I can ‘move forward’, but I have so many blocks around these areas. Let my tell you about a few.
Dynamic Bookkeeping
Dynamic Bookkeeping is the bookkeeping business I have with Renea. As you read from my post Friday, I am working towards improving this and making it a business that is self sufficient so that I am not feeling so overwhelmed by it. But blocks I have around this are:
- I am not good enough to run a successful business
- I don’t have the time
- Its all really hard
- My clients control me instead of me controlling them
Ask the Bookkeeper
The plans I have for Ask the Bookkeeper are huge. I know that it will be a really successful site once it is up and running, but it is going to take time and I really don’t have the patience for taking time. I am teaching myself as much as I can about web design, social media marketing, blogging etc etc. But I still have blocks around it:
- I don’t know where I’m going to find the traffic to send to the website
- I don’t value my knowledge enough
- I don’t have the time
- I don’t believe people will want to know what I have to share
sonyanoonan.com
This site was set up as I kept ‘hearing’ that I had to do it, that I had to share my knowledge, my passion, my journey with people, so that they could connect with me and either start their own journey to happiness or help me on my way. The blocks I have around this are very similar to Ask the Bookkeeper:
- I don’t know where I’m going to find the traffic to send to the website
- I don’t value my knowledge enough
- I don’t have the time
- I don’t believe people will want to know what I have to share
House Renovating
Over the years I have started renovating many areas of my house., but nothing has ever been completed. Every room of the house has been touched in some way on the renovation bug, but non of them have been completed. My house actually looks worse now than it did 18 years ago when I moved in. Here are my blocks around renovating.
- I don’t have the knowledge to renovate
- I am not physically capable of renovating
- I can’t afford to pay someone to renovate
- I have no idea where to start
- People will judge my choices
- I don’t want to be cheap with my renovations, but can’t afford to buy expensive either
- My dad should be doing this for me, he helped my sister build 2 of her houses
Landscaping
I hate gardening – well that is what I keep telling myself, although if i was asked to renovate the house or landscape the garden I’d take the garden any day. My garden is very much like my house, lots of areas of it have been started, but none have every been finished. Here are my blocks around renovating.
- I don’t have the knowledge to landscape
- It is to physically hard
- Its too hot
- Its too cold
- I can’t afford to buy anything I need
- I can’t afford to pay someone to do it
- Paying someone to do the gardening is not right when you should be able to do it yourself
- Gardening is a man’s job, I shouldn’t have to do it
Lose weight
My weight has been typical of most women, up and down like a yoyo for years. I have established that there is a direct connection between my weight and my emotional/mental health. I will be beginning my next journey of weight loss real soon, but I will not be concentrating on losing weight but instead on improving my emotional/mental health. The blocks I have around weight loss are:
- Its to hard
- I have to starve myself to lose weight
- I have to work out two to three hours a day to lose weight
- I have done it before and put it back on, who says it will stay off this time?
- I love eating food
- I just need a cook to cook for me and I will be right
Get Fit
I would love more than anything to run in fun runs and ride around the bay or in the Tour de Cure. But I really don’t enjoy being out there slogging it out and being unfit and out of shape. The blocks I have around getting fit are:
- I am too fat
- I have knee troubles
- I have shoulder issues
- I can’t run properly
- I’ve never been able to run
- I’m not very good a sticking with it
- I am a people person and so want to share this journey with someone, but no one wants to get fit with me
Travelling throughout the World
Travelling is something that I have always dreamed of doing, but have never believed I would ever do. Here are my blocks around travelling:
- I don’t have a passport
- I don’t have the money
- I don’t have anyone to do it with
- Its a waste of money
- I don’t have the time
- Its a waste of time
Conclusion
It keeps coming to me that in order for us to have things we want we need to go and get them, they will not come to us without some type of movement forward. I feel that I am a genuinely lazy person and the main struggle is that I have to actually get moving so that these things will come to me. I am convinced that you have to work hard at things and that it will always be a struggle. I am needing to let go of this, things can come easy, you don’t always have to work hard at things, just work at them.
While typing this it has also come to me that it all comes down to Self Love, if I loved myself enough all of this would come to me easily and I wouldn’t feel so overwhelmed.
