This week has been a tough week for me. My dear Renea has been suffering quite badly with her Bipolar this week. She is struggling with not wanting to live. I know that one of the triggers for this is the pressure of our business, she denies it, but when we were talking earlier this week the tears just flowed and she poured out all the things that she either needed help with in the business or things that were causing her the greatest stress. To have what I already know confirmed by Renea herself was not only heartbreaking but also enlightening…
So on more than one occasion during Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday I begged the Universe to give me the answer to my problem. I know that me begging the Universe to make Renea better wont work unless Renea wants to get better (and when your are on a Bipolar Depression you really don’t want to get better, I understand this), but I begged the Universe to give me the solution to making our business less stressful for her.
The summary of our business is:
- I just want to work part time in it as I have other interests (sonyanoonan.com and askthebookkeeper.com.au)
- Renea just wants to do the work
- Renea struggles with staff management
- Renea struggles with dealing with clients issues
- Renea is feeling overwhelmed with the work load
- We both want to keep the business and not sell it.
After begging the Universe for a solution I sat with myself and established what I believed needed to happen, this is what I come up with:
- We need a Part-time Admin Person
- We need a Part-time Business Manager
I wrote out what I thought we required those people to do. Then I sat with Renea and asked her specific questions around what tasks she thought we needed someone to do. Then Renea and I talked about my thoughts and she asked me how we were going to come up with the money for these positions and how we were going to find the people to fill those positions. In the past I would have worried about her concerns and probably even agreed with them. But I am learning and although those thoughts briefly crossed my mind I let them go and told Renea that we had to trust in the Universe to provide us with the solutions we needed.
I was then talking to a friend and telling him my situation. This friend of mine, I respect so much. He is a phenomenal business man whom I have learnt so much from. He asked if he could have a coffee with me so we could go over some things. I never pass up an opportunity to have coffee with him as I learn so much from such short conversations. So today we had coffee and I wasn’t disappointed.
We sat down and went over what I had worked out this week with Renea, myself and our business. He helped me summarise it and then helped me sort out a plan of action. He agreed with my observations and he also added a few of his own. We worked out an action plan for the next 3-6 months and also a starting point. At the end I sat there looking at what he had typed (I’m very impressed with his typing speed 🙂 ). I can’t remember if I said it out loud or to myself, but I can remember thinking/saying – Wow, if I implement this I will be a REAL Business Woman…
Then something else happened to truly blow my mind – he offered to help me implement it, to be my Business Manager until it was sorted and we had found the right person to take over. At the time I went – Oh, ok cool. But later when I was telling Renea about the meeting I said to her, could you imagine how awesome our business would be if we accepted his offer to help us? I mean he is such a phenomenal business person, to me its like Steve Jobs or Richard Branson or Bill Gates offering to be our Business Manager.
The more I thought about it, the more I got excited about the idea, then the excitement turned to fear – what if he seen how bad I have actually been at running the business, what if he realised I wasn’t a very good business person. So I sat with that for a while and realised it was just myself judging myself and he wasn’t the type of person to judge or think poorly of people. I have also had to do some work around the fact that this is big time now, if I make this decision to put a Business Manager on (even if it isn’t him) then I am making a commitment to myself to step outside my comfort zone and become what I consider to be a TRUE Business Owner, a TRUE Executive. Am I up for it? I’d like to think I am. Am I scared? Most definitely? Am I going to do it? YEP!!!!
Can you see what has happened here for me? I put it out to the Universe to help me solve my problem, I let the plea go and although I put the request out a few times, I didn’t focus on it. And a few days later the Universe has provided for me. Thank you Universe, thank you phenomenal business person 🙂
Now its your turn. Find something you truly want and connect with it, ask the Universe for it and see what happens 🙂
